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  • J.S.W 2024

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    Brooch/Object. Fine Silver, 9ct gold, Brass, String, Gum Arabic, Titanium.
    Brooch/Object. Fine Silver, 9ct gold, Brass, String, Gum Arabic, Titanium.

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  • LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS CAKE. I WAS PREGNANT FOR THE FIRST TIME. THEY FOUND BIG PARTS OF HIS BRAIN WERE MISSING. BLACK HOLES WHERE BRAIN MATTER SHOULD BE. HE DIED INSIDE ME. I GAVE BIRTH IN A MORPHINE HAZE AND TOLD EVERYONE NOT TO BE SAD BECAUSE HE WAS HERE. THEN I CRIED. FOR A LONG TIME.

    SOME TIME LATER WE PLUCKED UP ENOUGH COURAGE TO GET PREGNANT AGAIN. MISCARRIAGE. NEXT TIME IT STUCK. HE WAS BORN IN A WARM BATH. EYES OPEN. READY FOR ANYTHING. SOMETHING WAS WRONG THOUGH. BUT HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU’RE CRAZY OR EVERYONE ELSE SAYING EVERYTHING IS OK ARE THE CRAZY ONES?

    HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH STAGE TWO CANCER AT 10 MONTHS. THE TUMOUR HAD BEEN GROWING SINCE HE WAS INSIDE ME. IT HAD CLOSED ONE LUNG AND WAS WRAPPING AROUND HIS WINDPIPE. HICKMAN LINE. CHEMOTHERAPY. ALL CLEAR. RECOVERY. THINGS SEEN YOU NEVER THOUGHT WOULD BE SEEN.

    WE HAVE ANOTHER BOY NOW. A PREGNANCY FILLED WITH IMAGINED FEARS FROM OURSELVES AND THE DOCTORS. WE ARE ALL TRAINED TO SEE SHADOWS OF MONSTERS EVERYWHERE. HE IS HEALTHY. THEY ARE BOTH HEALTHY. IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE IT SOMETIMES.

    FOR A LONG TIME MY PRACTICE BECAME A SERIES OF DRAWINGS AND WRITINGS OF IMAGINED WORKS. ABOUT SICKNESS. READY TO MAKE WHEN THE SICKNESS HAD PASSED. LIKE FUEL BEING ADDED TO A FIRE. WAITING FOR A MATCH TO STRIKE.

    I ONLY SAY THIS TO TRY AND EXPLAIN WHAT I AM AND WHERE I HAVE BEEN. I AM TRYING TO RE-ENTER A WORLD NOT RULED BY SICKNESS AND DEATH. IT IS SOMETIMES EASY. IT IS SOMETIMES HARD. IF YOU’RE READING THIS, THANKS FOR STICKING WITH ME.

    NO WONDER MOTHER’S ARE BAT SHIT CRAZY.

    LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS CAKE. I WAS PREGNANT FOR THE FIRST TIME. THEY FOUND BIG PARTS OF HIS BRAIN WERE MISSING. BLACK HOLES WHERE BRAIN MATTER SHOULD BE. HE DIED INSIDE ME. I GAVE BIRTH IN A MORPHINE HAZE AND TOLD EVERYONE NOT TO BE SAD BECAUSE HE WAS HERE. THEN I CRIED. FOR A LONG TIME.

    SOME TIME LATER WE PLUCKED UP ENOUGH COURAGE TO GET PREGNANT AGAIN. MISCARRIAGE. NEXT TIME IT STUCK. HE WAS BORN IN A WARM BATH. EYES OPEN. READY FOR ANYTHING. SOMETHING WAS WRONG THOUGH. BUT HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU’RE CRAZY OR EVERYONE ELSE SAYING EVERYTHING IS OK ARE THE CRAZY ONES?

    HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH STAGE TWO CANCER AT 10 MONTHS. THE TUMOUR HAD BEEN GROWING SINCE HE WAS INSIDE ME. IT HAD CLOSED ONE LUNG AND WAS WRAPPING AROUND HIS WINDPIPE. HICKMAN LINE. CHEMOTHERAPY. ALL CLEAR. RECOVERY. THINGS SEEN YOU NEVER THOUGHT WOULD BE SEEN.

    WE HAVE ANOTHER BOY NOW. A PREGNANCY FILLED WITH IMAGINED FEARS FROM OURSELVES AND THE DOCTORS. WE ARE ALL TRAINED TO SEE SHADOWS OF MONSTERS EVERYWHERE. HE IS HEALTHY. THEY ARE BOTH HEALTHY. IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE IT SOMETIMES.

    FOR A LONG TIME MY PRACTICE BECAME A SERIES OF DRAWINGS AND WRITINGS OF IMAGINED WORKS. ABOUT SICKNESS. READY TO MAKE WHEN THE SICKNESS HAD PASSED. LIKE FUEL BEING ADDED TO A FIRE. WAITING FOR A MATCH TO STRIKE.

    I ONLY SAY THIS TO TRY AND EXPLAIN WHAT I AM AND WHERE I HAVE BEEN. I AM TRYING TO RE-ENTER A WORLD NOT RULED BY SICKNESS AND DEATH. IT IS SOMETIMES EASY. IT IS SOMETIMES HARD. IF YOU’RE READING THIS, THANKS FOR STICKING WITH ME.

    NO WONDER MOTHER’S ARE BAT SHIT CRAZY.


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    Necklace. Silver, Brass, String.
    Necklace. Silver, Brass, String.

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    When mourning my dead son, all I could do was plant things and make puzzles.
    When mourning my dead son, all I could do was plant things and make puzzles.

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    Communist Hand Tools
    Communist Hand Tools